Syl Anagist. I mentioned the idea about what the fear of reaping-what-you-sow does to some people in my last post. She captures it beautifully, and, in context, aptly.
“But there are none so frightened, or so strange in their fear, as conquerors. They conjure phantoms endlessly, terrified that their victims will someday do back what was done to them—even if, in truth, their victims couldn’t care less about such pettiness and have moved on. Conquerors live in dread of the day when they are shown to be, not superior, but simply lucky.” From: N.K. Jemisin. “The Stone Sky.”
You really should be reading her books. All of them.
I’m not sure where I first encountered this idea. Definitely in school. Probably a literature class.